|Current mood:|| exhausted|
When did I become such a lightweight?
And why am I thinking about Ant so much? And why the fuck did I have a dream about him? When do I get to see this boy again?
My former roomie hates me. That's cool. Supposedly I hate her too. According to my recruit who heard it from her prospective. Nice huh? Who even gives a fuck?
Wasn't too fond of my recruit though. Might be able to replace LL though. Every team's gotta have one.
Speaking of recruits, who doesn't love having a roommate who works in athletics with the assistant AD and gets you dragged into recruiting fairs so early in the morning. Wasn't thrilled but then I remembered I just submitted my app for athletic rep to Student Government so I better get used to it. And then I saw one of those NCAA Student-Athlete commercials about how there are 360,000 of us. Not alot when you think about it. Its really kinda cool and I love hearing those commercials. Makes me feel special. So this is the least I can do right? If its something I love, I should pass that on. Especially with only a year left. I can't redshirt this season even if we don't know what's going to happen to us. I can't give this up.
I also need my voice especially with this thing tomorrow so I should call it a night before its gone for good.....
Oh one more thing. Can I tell you what makes me most nervous about tomorrow? I have to dress nice so I was thinking of wearing a skirt because I like to make it a point that female athletes can be feminine. Or at least that I can clean up well. But that makes me nervous because of my knee. Haven't worn a skirt yet. The only time I even have had shorts on is to go to the gym where noone cares. I know its not a big deal but it kinda is. Especially with the latest setback which has it swollen. But I know I should just suck it up and be proud of the battle scars noone's even gonna notice.