|Current mood:|| tired|
|Current music:||Christmas music|
Back from the Burg
And to be quite honest, I feel like I never left here. I'm still exhausted and I still have a shitload of work to do. But other than that, break was nice. I did get to see the family and the girls so all is not lost. Time with the family was very nostalgic which was kinda nice. It's a rough time of year and I think we've come along way to get the point where we share memories rather than sit and hold them in silence. And yet I still do. I don't know why. I think because to be very frank, I don't have the memories. They're lost somewhere. And I'm stopping because I don't need to fall apart right now. I don't know why that just hit me like that right now.
Anyway, I did some thinking. Like always. But as I was filling the girls in on the latest production stage of my life, I finally realized how ridiculous it sounds. So the way I see it, I have 2 choices and I need to make the decision and accept the consquences. One, I can go after this kid no matter what. Girlfriend or no girlfriend. The consequence: I'm setting myself up to get hurt. If he really is the guy every keeps saying he is, he's not gonna just leave her whoever she may be which means I'm putting myself into a spot where nothing good can come my way. Two, I let go and move on with my life. Consequence: If there is a chance, I miss it. Really, I think I missed my chance 3 months ago as it is so I really should just learn my lesson and move on.
My head hurts. My mother stressed me out. Its not my fault there's an insane amount of traffic around shopping areas the first weekend of the shopping season. Or that restaurants in their vicinity are crowded. Or that there's no parking near this building since there's 200+ people trying to move back in. We're spoiled at the beginning of the year since athletes move in early and each team reports at a different time so there's always parking and I think she forgets that we all are coming back at once now.
Anyway, time to either do work, unpack, or find my crew and see how their breaks went. I think choice #3 sounds the best to me...