I should be dead by now (lycre) wrote, @ 2003-10-02 02:23:00

I figured it was time for me to update, so uh... here goes! Look at me type, weeee! I'm packing up to go back to colorado... but deciding to stay here and then changing my mind hte moment my mom left like a week ago really made me relieze how much i needed to move back. Myabe that was the point of all of this, learning to rely on family and not being ashamed to do such. Not being ashamed to be loved. And I am not ashamed. At least not of that...

C-ko, t-sama and chelly visited last weekend. It was awesome. Courtney is the girl i want for all time, there's little doubt in my mind. Another reason why I'm blessed, simply for being priviladged enough to know her, and to have her feel the same way about me. that's awesome.

6 meals of non stop ramen have a strange effect on the mind. i've been bored all afternoon, partially starving since i'm refusing to eat another bit of that crap (i'm down to just oriental!) ut as i'm typing this i feel alright. everything's gonna be ok. i'm gonna make it into adam state either in january or next year. it'll happen, i can see it in my future. normally when i look ahead i can decide whether or not something is going to work out,a nd i never saw myself living in nm for long. i wanted it but i just couldnt see it. thank god for tht eh? gettin the hell outta this place.

i think i'm suddenly so perky is because i talke dto mom a few hours ago, she's gonna help me out with my bank crap (90.35 over drawn) but that'll all be taken care of and then i can buy some food. aidan will havea roommate, my step brother, when i move out, so i made sure to take care of him, cept aidan will have to pay his share of everything which he doesnt like but whatever, he's manage, i did, plus he should have a job soon, which is good.

I'm leaving in less then 2 weeks, not this weekend but the next, which is a very exciting fact. i'm really excited about eating like a hog. all the bread, cheese and cola i want!!! MWA AHHAHAHAHAHA. Plus i'll have dsl there too, which i wont have to pay for. I'll learn how to drive, get over my phobia and grandpa's supposed to buy me a klunker so i can be abl to get around all i want, which is really more freedom then i have right now, being reduced to not being able to leave my apartment by myself without being able to go every far.

you all need to update your blurties more often, i have nothing to read : ) I COULD read a book... or work on my site.. or my rpg.. lol i suck : ) night all ^.~ COMMENT! /cries/ : )

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