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its beautiful somewhere
Y'know, I used to have the courage to just tell any guy I thought he was hot (I mean in person) and ask for his number. I didn't give a fuck; if he said yes, awesome, if not, oh well. And I still hold to that and everything, but my face burns up SO badly now and I can't get it to stop. It sucks! I'll try and talk to em and everything, but if they flirt back, I blush to the point of TRUE embarassment. This happened to me twice yesterday. Guh.
"Everythings gonna be alright." Yeah, probably most overused phrase.. in songs, or conversations, or even those advice books that they try to get you to buy. And I never really believed it, because once something bad got better, something ELSE would happen and it was just a neverending cycle of misery. .. But.. I believe it now. It's weird. I mean, you have to make it happen. You can't just lay back and wait for things to get better, but they do.
And you'd think I'd be saying the opposite. Sam Goody's shutting down in a week, I might lose my job if this new company doesn't want me, no other company would pay me as much, plus it just sucks cause I loved it. Then, on Monday I have a dr appointment that could turn out to be either REALLY bad or really good, depending on the test results.. the anxiety is really annoying. I could think of more, but what's the point in making myself feel worse? Anyway, yeah.. despite all that crap, I feel awesome.
This is what it's like to be happy in a world that's not.
I just wish I could help everyone else feel this way too.
feel free to take that as "cool, i wanna hang out with jen, cause she'll make me feel better!" followed by calling me and actually hanging out. chyeah.
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