Emmie (lunadea) wrote, @ 2007-11-06 00:16:00

Fuck him. Fuck her.
I explained to her how I felt about him.
How I felt like he'd used me.
How I feel like he's using her.
How I might be overreacting.
But I must not have made it clear enough how much I just hate being around him. How it make me cringe. How it makes my skin crawl.

Because she made up with him. She forgave him. And now she's always talking about what a good friend he is. She's always inviting him up to the room to hang out. She's always including him in group events.
She's the only one who enjoys spending this time with him. I can tell that she wants us all to like him as much as she does. She wants the guys to be his guy friends. But NO ONE else wants to let him into the group. How much of that is my fault? I don't even care.
Now, I've been sitting alone in the room since 8:00. It's 12:30. She just left while I was in the bathroom. Didn't say anything. Just left Addie to explain and leave.
So now it's me.
And it's clear that despite all her "LUV U"'s and all, she's chosen him over me. She's chosen a boy who's screwed her over and manipulated her so badly into thinking so many horrible things about me.
And anything I say will just confirm his words.
I have to pretend it's all okay.

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