|Current mood:|| numb|
|Current music:||damien rice ~ i remember|
wish i could take it all back
i hate swearing, but this is the first thing that came to my mind when i thought of :you:. FUCK YOU. i hope you read this and know who you are and realize that you pushed me that final step to miserable.
so much depressing things have been occuring in my family. my brother has to start going to this rehab thing. that makes it hard on his wife and kids. my mum is upset about the whole thing and continues to fight with my dad. i can't say anything to her without it hurting her more, i dont know what is wrong with me, im just fed up with this screwed up situation my family is and am having a hard time dealing with it now.
im sorry mum. i never meant to hurt you.
i am going to try real hard to not upset her again. even though i do the best i can already. even if that means making my own self even more miserable. i guess it doesn't matter anymore.
giving up my own for others.
"what i am to you is not real"