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my day and night
ok well let me update ya. So the relay for life thing was so much fun. Even tho i could only stay for 3hrs(long story) it was the most fun i've had all year. Ok so me chrissy boa and brenda walked around Canterbury looking to meet some people who went to school there. We walked all around the dorms, and met alot of people, but not many our age. Then some1 left the door to a roomopen, so we snuck in. As brenda, me and chrissy got ahead, lol boa stayed back without us knowing so as we were walking around the building(that was like a maze) we hear someone yell WHAT R U DOING HERE!!! and all 3 of us scream and like jump onto each other. But it was just boa. lmao. We then went walked down to town and just hung out there. We watched everyone get high.. even the lil eight graders. Then Brenda walked up back and me and chrissy went looking for Edison. After we found him, we walked back up to Canterbury, but we got tired and went to take a rest, and 2 black cats ran out right in front of us!!! AND IT WAS FRIDAY THE 13TH!!!! haha great. Once we got back, me and chrissy wanted to play ultimate frisbee.. so we found brenda and asked her to ask these hott guys if we could play. They came off as "rude boys" or so we called them, but then after a while they were cool. In a game of Ultimate frisbee, me and travis won!! woo hoo! NO MORE BUTTERFINGERS!!! haha They also taught me how to punch hard.. im working on it. ;) haha. Anewayz so i dunno y, or anything. But this year i have been so so so so so so times ifinite so so insecure. And friday night, i gained a lil more confidence in myself. I think it was because we were just talking to anybody we saw that night, and usually i have been so.. shy and insecure. But anewayz i just gained a lil more confidence.. and it was great. So then i couldnt stay there but before i left i saw some guys playing the guitar and its a GOOD THING lol. Since friday night i would talk to anyone, people i didnt even know, i would have SOOOO talked to the guys playing the guitar. Haha then when i was walking with Nicole and Erin we were singing "hey baby.. i wanna know it u'll be my guitar guy." But i couldnt find them.. UNTIL.. i was walking back and i heard a guitar and i was gonna pretend i was walkjing in the relay and just kinda walk near them and tell them that i liked them playing and start a conversation with them. But i saw my moms van and it was midnight, so i knew i had to go to the van and it sucks because i will never have confidence or anything to ever go up to them, or anyone else... I WILL NEVER HAVE CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF like i did friday night. I mean usually i have 1% confidence in myself out of 100%... friday night i had 18% maybe. I mean i kno its a lil but it was something. uhhh. I couldve had a good 7more hours to try to start a converstation with them that night if i stayed. im pissed. but im over it. hah. I just wish i could have confidence. Well today i went to the mall with Alisa. I got a halter top at Weathervane but thats it.. i need shirts. Ok well i have to go now. later. *JesSicA*
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