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justin told me last night that lately he just feels sad nd miserable. says he's depressed nd if he can't do anything about it soon he thinks he might resort to suicide. the way he actually said it came out more dramatic nd not so blunt.. but ever since he told me that i've just been stuck. what am i suppose to do w. information like that? what if i came home one day nd just found him there, dead..?? it would ruin my entire life to see the love of my life DEAD.. especially due to his immense sadness.. it just hurts that i can't seem to help him. i've sensed a sadness off him since we first met nd it's only gotten worse since kenny nd his grandmother died. i want to help so bad. i want to make him happy.. it'll help me out in the end because right now he'll be grumpy nd take it out on me. so then i'll get pissed off which just adds to his anger.. it's a horrible cycle.
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