So This Is What's Going On
I talked to Slowey and gave him the letter and I am pretty sure he never read it and said that he did not want to so I pretty much just sat there and talked to him the things that I have talked into the ground. I told him he doesn't make sense and that's why I don't like this, so to maek sense so that I can be done. So he did and I did and it was all so silly.
And you know what? I'm okay. I mean, for a month I was going around dragging the ground and just being so horrible to myself and everyone else. But I am okay. And I called Slowey yesterday and I told him I am okay with being friends. I know I'm not completely over all of this yet, but I'll get there and I'm not about to lose someone so important just because I don't know how to act. We were friends before, so we'll do it again. And it's ot going to be a one-sided friendship. I want him to call me and say what's up every so often as well. If he's not going to, then I don't want any of it. And he's down and I'm down so we're down and I am so excited.
I am in such a good mood and I'm not about to be ready to get off of this high. And you know what else? I think I want to go to prom. I think I want to go buy a dress and do my hair and nails and go to prom and I don't think I care whether or not I haev a date. I am just in the mood to go dancing and not care who the hell in the world I'm about to be dancing with. I am going to be comfortable and not give a shit.
And I am so excited about all of it. Makes me want to throw my head back and my arms out and scream. The end.