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| Current music: | give up the ghost |
its only you beautiful or i dont want anyone
wow its been long. im such an asshole, i cant believe i ditched my blurty completely and entirely. i suck, im sorry.
its not a lie, whenever i do something im not supposed to, no matter how stupid and ridiculous it is, as long as its something thats breaking a parentally set rule, they catch me. case and point: last night my mom was in the city and my dad was home working. i am not supposed to drive in cars with anyone other than parents and i figured since there was no seemingly possible way they would ever see me in a car bc how could they, being one was in the city and the other one was at work, i got in the car with jeremy because it was just easier than walking. maybe i should tell u how i got into that horribly dangerous and ridiculous situation (i hope you caught the sarcasm):
i met up with tim, jer, and kyle at this chinese place around my corner, from there we were going to walk to sami's, but jer and kyle were supposed to hang out with bailey and courtney. timmy decided to invite everyone too sam's and then she got mad and upset being that it had been so long since i said we were coming. we stopped at jeremy's to pick up the car and to go get them. at this point sam didnt thinik we were coming at all and was prolly furious. being the best friends ever that we are, we went to waldbaums and got her a cake. we suprised her at her house and from there, there was some more funny, crazy stuff that happened but i dont feel like writing about it. anyway, it had been no big deal that i was driving with jeremy because it seemed fool-proof. later on, we were going to go back to my house from myles' house and they couldnt see the car parked so i had jermey drop us off one block over and he drove away. as we go to my driveway my mom pulled in and everything seemed fine.
after everyone left she said how did u get here so fast, i saw you on the corner of lafayette and then you got here as i did. so she knew i couldnt have walked but i told her i did anyway and then it was quickly obivous that i hadnt walked and i said fine i drove with jeremy for like 2 blocvks and they went out of their minds and told me to get out of their face. they said some stuff but ultimately "have to sit with this for a while" before they can do anything about it. do you see that folks, i suck at life. i suck suck suck and this sucks and im so fucked because i have no clue what the consequences are going to be and please lilsten to me from now on when i say i get caught when i do things i shouldt and i know its stupid but seriously, i do and i dont want to keep fucking up in my parent's mind.
sorry this was a whole stupid rant but i really wanted to update my blurty.
i sorta made up with dave last night after not talking to him for id say a monthish. i say sorta, but we did make up, its just not how i pictured it going. it was so good to hear his voice though, i cant explain it. i dont know, im so confused.
ok, im going to go now and hopefully this wasnt too painful, but i suck at keeping two journals.
<333 jules
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