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for you and only you. . .
im sitting in sams house now waiting for her to be done with her tutor and apparently i had too much time to think because i got massively depressed. i dont know what happened to my forever good mood.
i feel sick to my stomach with lonliness, but i dont understand because im not at all alone. i dont feel loved though and i wish i did. i know its silly because there are so many people who say they love me, i just dont feel it i guess. :( maybe its because im longing to be loved that way.
so many people have been asking me if im ok and whatnot, telling me i look down and depressed and i cant take it becuase i am but im not all at the same time.
ugh im so just sad right now, i need to be cheered up.
but i suppose this isnt out of the ordinary for me, i tend to cycle like this...whenever im too happy all i have to do is look into the past and think about situations and upset myself to the max. ughh, ive done a good job of that recently. im gonna go now, it feels like im fishing for sympathy when thats the last thing im doing...
later~
its only you beautiful or i dont want anyone if i can chose, its only you
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