| Current mood: | awry amiss askew |
awry
its quite an accurate word u kinda have to screw up ur mouth to say it awry it suits how i feel right now awry something isnt quite right amiss also works i think awry though is pretty simple. I'm not sure wuts wrong but i know that something feels wrong like maybe its not here yet but its coming. Or maybe its already here but I cant see it. Am i putting to much on going to Philli? Like that will be my answer. Maybe woodley made his recon test maybe im worried he will. What kind of girlfriend says i hope u fail sweetie take one for the team thats terrible isnt it? But its exactly wut I wanted to tell him like OMG WE ARE GETTING MARRIED AND U WANT TO GO TO TRAINING FOR 48 DAYS BEFORE U SECURE ME A RESIDENCE??????? arg thats selfish though and its also not his job I CANNOT absolutely CANNOT put him in the place of my parents because if i do that will make are whole relationship askew (another fun a word) maybe it was the dream the dream of my ex the one i know i dont want to be with cause he was so abusive telling me i had to marry him and his parents and i stood there yelling NO NO NO this is wrong i have to marry woodley I WANT TO BE MRS PAUL and they were like no ur supposed to be MRS ...... and then i woke up the phone rang. isnt it awesome how the phones never seem to ring or u never seem to wake up until the good part of the dream or maybe i just hit my rem cycle way to late and thats why but yea something is wrong with me or maybe its simple like i havent spoken to woodley for two days and i know i wont speak to him for another two maybe three cause hes in the feild...my dad used to go to the feild he didnt want to be around me when he came back though cause i guess he was all soldier mode needed to shower have sex and sleep the three S's every soldier seems to adhere to when first home from the feild. Maybe I'm making woodley my psychologically and physically tangible father....maybe i need to leave psychobably up to the psychiatrist.
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