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i wonder just how many songs that line is in but i seem to like every song that its in so i think its a subliminal phrase someday ill rearrange it and find out... but it is all in my head like my random paranoia that woodley and i wont last thats all in my head its one big mind game established by myself to insure that i cant sleep some nights...this boy loves me so much and i love him so much like i dont know it scares me about what i would do with out it so i try and do unessacary premptive damage control for an imaginary situation that might or might not happen i just i wish i could be more optimisitic about the things i really enjoy..like i know what i want for us but i think of all the obstacles to come and i think about how much i cant stand aspects of the military and i just wish i could stop dwelling on random possibility. I graduate from highschool in....15 days...june 21 and thats the end of it all for me. I dont know im not worried...not yet..not nervous...not yet..i think as soon as im done with all this school work as soon as my powerpoint is finished ill be freaked out ill be worried ill be nervous... at the same time everything is figured out for me im going military and im going to be with woodley and hell be military and that makes me feel secure and safe and i like that..ALOT. I like that i know just what im doing and i like that i have someone doing it with me..and im in love with him Next week are my exams i have 4 exams algerbra 3, humanities, US II, gym. So on monday and tuesday i have to be here and i will be here for the entire day, wed ill be here for half the day proly go tan and baby sit i need to go tan like at least four times before next thursday preferably three times because i want to be nice and dark on thurs cause im going to...THE POOL! THE MALL! and THE MOVIES...i wanna have a really cute outfit too because i want to look really nice when i go to SIX FLAGS for a concert with WOODLEY o yea sexy sexy times i think if he wants ismael and ghadavi to go to that would be cool i just dont want nething like to get started and i better get a gift to cause like im pretty friggin psyched about it being 6 mo since we first got invovled and 9 mo unofficially and a year and 3 mo since we met....but if he dont get me nething thats cool i just want to make out with him..alot and talk to him alot and be held by him all the time....I can pick up my graduation stuph next week that will be cool but i ned to pay off my 16 dollar obligation to the school and my grandmother will be here on friday and that will be fun im thinking on the 18th they might be all so busy that i can just slip out that will be awesome....i really want to see that concert i really want to chill with woodley... after i graduate ima being nuthing but babysitting working working out and hanging with woodley and krissee everynow and then but pretty much working and working out i dont know when my MEPS day is gonna be i dont know what job ima do i just really want that figured out right now... Post a comment in response: |
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