ok. so its been quite sometime since i've come on here. well...its time to talk. i've been having a rough couple of weeks. im getting to the point where i just want everything to go away. i want everybody to go away. im scared. and i know that everything is comming back to me times 10. so. wut have i decided to do.i decided to quit hakata. quit everything. find and start a new life. even if there are somethings that remind me of the past...uhg...i know everything that im doing right now is going to remind me of the past. im so scared. not of wuts to come....but of the feeling. the feeling of regret. the feeling that i hate the most in the enitre world. and that feeling my friends fucked me up. fucked me up right in the ass. but you know what..its okay..i was gonna have to learn something about something...AH...anyways i fucked up. i lost the one person that mattered to me the most..some of my friends are still around. but not too many of them. and well..i dont know...let me just sum everything up for everybody....i havent changed...not one bit...ive just been hurting...serverly. for quite a while. so to all my lovely friends...if i seem different...please dont take it in any wrong way..i just put myself in a strange position. and right now...im just trying to get comfortable with my life again. anyways...if this made any sense at all then...o...thats wut i been up to.
kristina
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