| Current mood: |  worried |
| Current music: | no music hurt, very sad |
Gut feeling was correct.....
god damm the gut feelings. I am so confused,hurt, and upset now. Mind you I have been here before, but this time it really hurts. I hope to god all this is not another gag or something. I don't know what to say or do or what to make of anything right now, so I am just writing and rambling on.
Dear God/Goddess in heaven. You know what is in my heart and mind and what I am asking of you. I beg you.. not twice.... you know this time around I could not deal with it. I'm so fragile on the inside. If it breaks again... (shudder)
All I can do is wait. I've been asked to waited like this before. I dislike it, but I will do it.
I will so not be sleeping for a few days I am sure.
I have not feel so wounded and hurt in some time, but I took my chance anyways. It's better to know that you took a chance and feel bad about it then to *NOT* take a chance at all.
I dunno all hope is not lost really. ARGGGGGGG I'll stop rambling and wafflling on now. I think I need some alone time myself now.
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