First entry of my life
Ok so as I mentioned in my profile...Greg my ex broke up with me almost a month ago. He was the only guy I actually ever loved. I show my feelings weirdly. Im not a virgin havent been for a while...and this even gets me but I liked him so much but yet I didnt do anything with him...I wanted it to be special and in my eyes I guess it wasnt. I know thats hard to understand he was the one for me...I knew he was but I know that I would have hurt one of us more. Yet I hurt myself by doing it with guys who were lesser then this guy the man of my dreams. I believe that is that biggest thing that broke us up. And your thinking if it was it wouldnt be a good relationship...well I think it was...he just wanted to feel wanted and I didnt show it good enough. Now we dont talk our last converstaion I said some very mean things because I was upset....I guess he found someone else already. I miss him so much my heart hurts when I think about him. I try not to but I cant help myself I just remember all the good things...the letters,the kisses, the love...If your reading this Greg I dont think I could say sorry enough for putting you through and wasteing a year of your life. I didnt mean anything I said that last time we talked Im just hurt.