| Current mood: |  stressed |
| Current music: | Tool~Prison Sex |
~let me die~
I've never felt so guilty in my life...today my mum woke me up crying, saying she only had £50 to do her for 2 weeks since they cut off her money which she got when me was at school..so mainly its my fault..She kept on going on about it n it just got me guilty n down..n I had only some money to send Adam's shit present. I was mad at myself giving her the money that I had but the present was shit anyways..I'm sorry Adam..You'll still get something..just late..-.-, ish ok though..you'll get cool pressies from Janelle n your family..
Just feel if me wasn't born the world would be better..Adam would probably be in love with a cooler chick, my mum n Lisa wouldn't have to worry about money n I wouldn't have to go through all the hurt n guilt me have been through. >.<,
To top it off, me going loony again. Me n mum had a huge fight yesterday n she screamed at me so much I had to hold my head it hurt so much...n I screamed back at her real loud, saying nasty things. After that me felt really ill n I spewed..-.-' *sighs n eats her choco muffin* I couldn't be more stressed n me scared about staring college next week...Yeah, I nu get in but my mom's friend works at the college n has offered me a free place on a model making course. I have no choice but to take it. Need the money...then me can get something better for Adam as a late birthday pressie..^^ Me only wanna talk with him now n having to tell the man you love that you can't send them a present just now on his 18th really makes me wanna crawl up n die..I love you Adam..*cuddles* -.-, *Sad Chibi Shadow* XxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxX
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