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I haven't written in a while. My trip home was good...well actually the plane rides were awful and I had some luggage issues that I just don't have the energy to relive at the moment! I had to deal with rude people and small seats. It was quite awful.
Anyway, I ill just start in back where I am now. I have been staying with my bf...and it is mostly good. Sometimes it is hard because he works so much, and his office is right downstairs so he goes down there a lot, but I try to be understanding...soetimes I miss him though and get frustrated because he will tell me he is coming up so we can watch a movie or something but then it ends up taking really really long..or he will be done for the day but then at like midnight he has to go down and take care of stuff. Things will be better I'm sure.
So, yeah, we have had a few arguments...one pretty bad one...but we are doing ok for now I think.
The hardest thing was last Thursday...I went to say bye to my ex, because he was leaving for overseas...we had a nice time...had lunch and talked and then i went to see his kitten (i am watching her whilel he is gone). Anyway, things ended up getting pretty bad at one point because he kind of snapped and tried to force himself on me. I mean seriously...i have never seen such a look in his eye and i was crying and telligng him "no" he had my pants half off and I was struggling when he just snapped out of it. I was kind of in shock and crying and I just wanted to leave and he wouldnt let me for like 40 minutes. It was bad. Then I ended up telling my mom and my bf about it. My mom and I forgive him because he stopped, and it was not like him, i honestly think something in him snapped and then he snapped back to reality..i say that because of the looks in his face. My bf was mad though and hates him even more now...and we had some problems because he said everytime he wanted to kiss me he thought of that and couldnt...but we talked things out and I think, i hope, he is past it.
I am going to the temp agency tomorrow hopefully they can help me find some work. I really need money i have none. It is horrible because i can't even go out anywhere...I don't even have money to buy a soda!
Ok, I am going to go now. I will try to keep writing often again now that I am settled back at home!