today was an eventful day. well last night i was IMed by Alyssa Gail Davies and she asked me if i wanted to go to mixfest with her at the fleetcenter. so i said yes. we asked kelly but she couldnt go for some reason. good ol' erin came with us. we hung out at alyssa's house for a bit before her brother eric drove us to b-tree. we take the train in to downtown crossing and get wendies spicy chinken sandwiches, holy mother of god. amazing. then we walked to the fleetcenter. vertical horizon played first, they were good but i didnt really know them. next was jason mraz. and he disapointed me. he was just not good. michelle branch was next. wikked good. could you look me in the eyes and tell me that youre happy now? yea thats right. so we left after her. no duran duran for me. oh well. so we left at like 745 and my sister was coming at 10 so we walked to fanuil hall. and there is a holocaust memorial there. we walked through it, and it is so emotional.every number of every victim of the holocaust is there. and they have the most moving quotes from survivors if the horrific events. i hate to say it but it was just beautiful to me. the way the lights lit it up and the fog from underneath. ive never looked at it before. it made all 3 of us have a horrible rush of guilt brought over us. that whole time amazes me. id love to live through it just ot experince something, i can only imagine about it. im sorry if you think im crazy for that but its true. we walked across the street adn talked about it a little and then alyssa brightened the mood by running crazy. hahahhhhahahaha. so we went to look at hte 9/11 memorial thingy they have, but it was too much for one night so we didnt stay there long. erin had a gift certificate to newbury comics so we wnt but it was closed. we walked to dunkin donuts but no hot chocolate. a drunk man came in and he fell down. i really dont get it how people can do that to themselves. drink so much. urgh. so we went adn sat upstairs at fanuiel hall, and we had such an unusual conversation. it was everything i had wanted to say in the past 6 to 8 months that i just couldnt say. and the same for erin i think. and alyssa of course. but i cried and so did erin. i dotn know why but i feel like i can talk to her about anythign sometimes.it was jsut good to get those things off my chest and finally let someone know about it.i mean it was so akward crying there but i needed it. and erin and alyssa are the 2 people to do it iwth. well now to happier times, my sister picked us up at like 1015ish with jessica and we listened to JT and the ataris and sp and jayz on the way home. woo hooooo!
i have a funny feeling that this year will be a repeat of mine and maryann's relationship last year. as in we were good friends until about november and then we kinda stopped seeing each other.
and i came to the conclusion that kelly has changed. just everything about her seems different to me. not a bad different for her, but i jsut feel like she is not hte same. i dont know. i dont want to say this. but argh. since she is hanging out with emy i never see her. and im so happy her and emy are best friends again but it jsut makes me feel like a replacement for the year kelly didnt talk to her ya know? it just makes me sad that i feelthat way about my best friend. even though i doubt she even noticed it. so yea. im tired now so im going to move 5 feet to my bed now. goodnight.