|Current mood:|| tired|
|Current music:||the ground folds- senses fail|
falling fast, moving slow.
i'm stuck in regrets
and living in appologies.
so worried about the future,
i can't step away from the past.
it gives me nightmares.
they don't seem to go away
..the misery that haunts me..
but i want to much
to leave it all behind,
to feel like myself again,
to feel genuinly happy
and i'm trying, and i'm fighting,
but when i close my eyes
the reoccuring images terrify me.
i try to fight them away..
to punch and kick my fears,
but i only awake to twisted sheets
and realize i'm battling myself
these bruises as my wittness,
i did this to myself.
arguements in my head
the screaming lingers in my ears
long after my thoughts disappear.
i fear i'm going deaf.
just when i feel i can't take it anymore,
those long periods of silence take over
..where everything goes blank
my mind, body, thoughts....
the ringing of :nothing: drives me crazy.
the silence will soon get the best of me
and my ears will bleed me to death.
i'll surrender to my thoughts, and nightmares
...just take me away from my past...