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tangled in this beautiful mess (lnlypnkpolkadot) wrote,
@ 2004-03-11 20:31:00
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    Current mood: tired
    Current music:the ground folds- senses fail

    falling fast, moving slow.
    i'm stuck in regrets
    and living in appologies.
    so worried about the future,
    i can't step away from the past.
    it gives me nightmares.
    they don't seem to go away
    ..the misery that haunts me..
    but i want to much
    to leave it all behind,
    to feel like myself again,
    to feel genuinly happy
    and i'm trying, and i'm fighting,
    but when i close my eyes
    the reoccuring images terrify me.
    i try to fight them away..
    to punch and kick my fears,
    but i only awake to twisted sheets
    and realize i'm battling myself
    ..getting nowhere..
    these bruises as my wittness,
    i did this to myself.
    arguements in my head
    the screaming lingers in my ears
    long after my thoughts disappear.
    i fear i'm going deaf.
    just when i feel i can't take it anymore,
    those long periods of silence take over
    ..where everything goes blank
    my mind, body, thoughts....
    the ringing of :nothing: drives me crazy.
    the silence will soon get the best of me
    and my ears will bleed me to death.
    i'll surrender to my thoughts, and nightmares
    ...just take me away from my past...



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