|Current mood:|| stressed|
|Current music:||"Somebody else's lover"|
Listen to the music and Celibate....
What to be for halloween? I had no idea. I entertained many ideas, including a Hootergirl (original, I know), a nurse, Brittany, Christina...I ended up with a Christina-type costume. The world's smallest white pants and a shirt that could've doubled as a dress for barbie. We planned all week on going to the party at Midway with all the KAs, Betas, and 7 other houses. I had fully prepared myself to see Robert getting on random girls, so i was ready for that. We meet a friend of mine at his house, and of course Robert was there. As was his girlfriend! WHAT?? That was something I wasn't really ready to hear. In 9 months of being friends, he has had a girlfriend and never once said so. In fact, there were times he hinted that he didn't have one. I was completely thrown aback. I know that I said i wouldn't want to date him now, blah blah blah. I didn't expect him to have a girlfriend.I kind of wondered sometimes but still. Well she said they are "taking a break." But she said nothing has changed. She is beautiful and little bitty and sweet. I am done with Robert now. I guess he was just an infactuation anyways. I have decided that I am taking a break from guys. I think I really just need time to find out who I am and what I want for me, without the mess of guys. I miss my friends and I miss how I used to be my best friend. I was reading back in my old live journal some of the stuff I had written and I wrote some really good stuff. I used to be contemplative and funny and now I am so stressed out from everything I am just blah. I don't know if the sorority thing is worth the stress and time commitment at all. It is really expensive and I dunno. I just wish I knew what the right thing to do is. Well I need to get ready for work, I will write more later.
PS. I didn't forget the R.