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|Current music:||meant to live-switchfoot|
haven't had a chance to write
*big long distraught sigh* Let's back track first. Wednesday i saw the passions of christ movie. It was one of the most moving experiences i've ever had. It is undescribable, and so then i get in the car with my dad and he's all how was the movie, and i don't say anything and i wouldnt talk.. i mean we didnt hardly talk on the way home from the movie [i went with the church group] and he got really mad and started cussing me out and i started crying. So, when i get home i brush my teeth and go lay down in my parents room because i always sleep in there, haven't slept in my bed in months. So anyway, i lay down and then dad starts griping me out for sleeping in his bed, so i go lay down in my bed. My dad then got a really bad wasp sting and had a really bad allergic reaction to it. I was already really upset and started screaming i'm a screw up and that i was just stupid and couldn't do anything right, and that's when it got bad. My dad got really swolen up and red and was getting welps all over him, his chest started tightening and so i had to drive him to the hospital. Still crying, we walked into the hospital and we sat down and waited for a nurse or something and we go back there[now it was like midnight on a school night] and he gets some shots and abunch of other stuff done to him, and then i drive us home. Dad tells me i can sleep in his bed and he was really sorry. Then after about 5 hours of sleep i get up and me and dad talked, and he better understood why i was in the mood i was, it was because of the movie. So, thursday went better[yesterday] and here i am now, i left school early because i was having a terrible day. First off, the alarm didn't go off and i got up 30 minutes late and i couldnt take a shower because i didnt have time, and then i go to the bathroom and i had started my period.. and that was just too much, i was just so mad by then. So, i get to school and in basketball i just didnt want to play and i just wanted to go home and so then it's this guy's birthday and i worked really hard on a cd to give to him, i made him an awesome cover and it was just really special, and i was looking forward to give it to him, i just knew he would like it.. and when i give it to him he just was like oh..thanks.. and it was like he was embarressed or something, and it just really hurt and then in mrs gammills class i get in trouble for my shirt being too short and she said something about it and it just, i dont even know why i started crying and i went and called my mom and i told her what all happend and so then she said she'd call dad and he would come get me, cause its his week to have me. So, he comes and gets me and gets me some lunch and he takes me home. And so i eat my lunch and watch jerry springer and then my mom calls and we talk for a little bit, and i was feeling better and then i watched like mike and it was really cute, and i started crying some more. So, then i was in the bathroom and someone was at the door, so i get up and go to the door and a delivery guy had some flowers, and they were so beautiful, and he was like are you annie? and i was like yeah i am, and he's like look what you've won! and i'm like WOW so then i go and sit down and look at the card, and it has this bee on it and it says just beecause and its really cute, and i start crying and i call mom cause i figured she had sent them, and it wasn't her, and so i call dad and it wasnt him and i just started crying really hard, because the flowers are so beautiful and somebody actually took their time and money and thought of me to send them, and i'm just so happy that i'm crying, and i've never been so happy that i've cried. I just didn't think someone actually cared enough about me to do something like that. The other day we talked about random acts of kindness in sunday school and i just think its so wonderful when somebody does something like this. They are so beautiful, they have this big sun flower in the middle and three red roses and they have all these other pretty flowers and then the vase has flowers painted all on it, and it's just so nice, and it just has made everything so much better.