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|Current music:||"Angel" - Aerosmith|
More on resolutions...
See, told ya I'd be back!
Okay, what's on my mind tonight? The quixotical nature of New Year's resolutions. Everyone gets out their mental pad and pencil (or, physical, for the more anal among us *j/k*) and jots down their Great Ideas. People (who have the wherewithall to CARE) always want to improve something, either directly within, or immediately without. I'm no different. Have you noticed by March you have a difficult time even *remembering* those Great Ideas? If so, you're like me. *So*, I have another approach I would like to experiment with in 2004. How about just writing down all the things we refuse to live with anymore, rather than things we want *new* out of a situation. Makes no sense? Here's an example: Instead of "Lose Weight. Excercise.", make it something like, "Quit eating out of boredom. Stop driving to 7-Eleven for nachos when I can walk." I have a few in mind for myself. I don't necessarily need to adopt grandiose, brand new methods of living, when I can just *stop* doing something that bothers me. Putting this in writing in this fashion with "quits" and "stops" also forces me to acknowledge my own responsibility for the choices I make. Here's my (currently incomplete and unorganized) list:
1. Stop "dumbing-it-down" for so-called friends. If they don't want to know the real me, I don't need them. (Anyone who has ever felt like they hide their creativity, honesty, intellect, etc., for fear of being "weird" or disliked knows that of which I speak.)
2. Stop watching so much T.V. and read more again.
3. Quit with some of the insecurity, and allow myself to be happier.
4. Quit telling myself "I'm too tired" to go out in the snow. I'm a Pagan, for Gods' sake! The Earth is my temple, and I should behave like I love it as much as I really do in my heart.
5. Stop being so slow to make new friends, not everyone will be scared off because I'm a tad different. Those who are would be a waste of time, anyway. (See #1)
6. Quit being reluctant to go to doctor's appointments with my mom. The babysitter thing will be tough, but it just requires a little bit more effort. My mother has been sick and needs me not just at home, but "out in the world", as well.
This is the time of year to reflect, and to look forward. Good luck, and many blessings to you as you examine your own heart and mind. May you find courage in being able to look within.