|Current mood:|| lethargic|
|Current music:||mighty mighty bosstones royal oil|
talk about a mesed up day. i felt it the second i woke up. or rather felt somethign else. my face was all wet when i woke up and my eyes were really hurting me a lot. then i realized that the unconscious me was still crying from something. then i go back to sleep and i'm still crying. but IT'S NOT ME. i didn't feel it. i can't explain this, it really is hopeless lol. kinda felt like the person that was dreamign was crying and i couldn't control it, and the awake me was all, why am i trapped in this body? kinda like that. anyway, then i realize that i've been havign nightmares about my mother being murdred. then itamar goes up to me and goes (werid chocie of words) " i want to kiss you so badly, but i think youre going through something right now" then i'm all, yeah my dying mother is in my arms and etc. (if anyone can interpret this, HELP) i then used a whole tissue box during the am and got no sleep. my eyes burned throughout the day. and what a day it was. steph told me yesterday that she wasn't going to be able to drive us becasue she had to go to the hospital, so i had to bother my mother (and it felt really weird too) and then choir and 3 ppl r doing the melody, leaving me to hide my voice behind, er, no one cause the freshman r all meak and etc, so it's basically a trio with me hoarsing caus of broncho (oy). then jt, she walked out on us bc she got bored or somethin(talk about reverse psychology....) then a speaker came from u (boredom arose) i practied drawing faces=P then ath (quiz tomorrow=O ) then french.....it's annoying how stupid that class is. she thinks i'm worse than i really am, whereas the kids with their bff's in that class get support form them while istand alone. i hoe you die::stabs ::. then lnch with michelle.=D
earth science (zzzzzz), gym..bball...she taught me how to shoot from the side...and english....more zzzzzzing....
then halacha...i took the quiz, ditched, went the auditorium, saw menashe and dana, hung out with em' (i might be doing this a lt form now on lol) then art.....SHE WANTS METO DO A SELF PORTRAIT!! i still can't get over that.
yeah, that's it. this train is out of er...smoke? wait...steam=P