You make me want to forget and start all over.
Seven years is a long time for a lot of things. It's a long time to be working the same job, to be in school, to be friends with someone, to be 'in-like' with someone. Just the thought of seven years seems like such a long road, but when you're on the other end and looking back at the last seven years, they are gone, just like that. I never quite figured it out, but I don't think I want to because through experience I've realized that you start something to end it, but the end just brings you right back to where you started (if done correctly).
I went out with my high school crush. He was "that guy". Cute, funny, charming, athletic, stylish, popular... everything that your average 14 year old hormonal teenage girl would fall for. When I was around him, my knees felt like jello, my vision field glued itself to just include him as he walked by, my notes consisted of his name (next to mine, of course) and most of my thoughts were of us and what it would be like as we grew older, possibly together. However, I was a realistic kid. I never once believed that my thoughts could become a reality. Even if it was a possibility at the time, I was much too shy to initiate anything.
7 years later, myself and "that guy" are having coffee (actually, green tea, but whatever), and we spend 5 hours talking about everything and nothing all at the same time and it was absolutely great. He was everything I had always imagined and more. The experience was so surreal that at times, it was like I left my body and was watching myself from the outside just to remind myself that in fact what I thought was happening, or better yet, never thought would happen, was actually happening. It felt good to finally get what I want, even though it was something I wanted a few years ago in high school. I feel like I accomplished something and it felt good. Regardless of how this turns out, I am so glad that it happened. He's an amazing person, and will definitely make an amazing friend. Plus, I owe it to myself to spend a little quality time with the person that I love most... me. :)
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