Rocker is defiantely coming on saturday, and for some reason I am slightly apprehensive. Although I have assured everyone that I am completely over him, I am clearly not. To be quite honest, I dont think I ever stopped fancying him which is not good, especially as he has probably came the closest to breaking my heart out of all the guys I have been with. Its made my infactuation with TP look insignificant. And as much as this annoys me to say, I know that I dont have the willpower to stop myself if he makes a move. I have toyed with the idea of pulling some random bloke in front of him to play games, but I am bored of games, especially with Rocker. The thing that I dont get with Rocker is that I genuinely do not think he meant to hurt me, but he was so absorbed in himself and his friends he didnt realise how i felt about him. I think that he has got over that stage now, hence trying to make amends with me, he is now realising how badly he treated me. I think saturday night is going to be crunch time, it will be the end of the games that have revolved around us for the past two years resulting in a relationship, or clearance. I dont know which outcome I want more.
(Read comments)
|
