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Aries Many opportunities will open up when you admit to yourself and others that you can't always do everything by yourself, dear Aries. Instead of just engaging in small talk all the time, and being vague about how you are doing, take the time and effort to share with someone how you really feel and what exactly you need to bring you closer to your goals and dreams. Hmmmmmmmmm, interesting. Especially since this is my second day of not working since my assignment ended Friday. The temp agencies tells me I am a top candidate for the job they sent my resume for but we are going on the second week now and they have not scheduled any interviews. The temp agency seems to want me on that particular job and are not looking for something else for me. I, however, don't really care what I do as long as I am working. I have been buying papers but there is not much there. There is a job as a live-in helper, and another to drive a handicap van two nights a week. You know, that doesn't sound half bad if I could do both but I just hate the thought of giving up my apartment. Of course, there are the cats too. So really, that is not an option although it might have gotten me through this year. I should know soon if I have a real job. I have faith in the temp agency. They have come through for me so far. I just have to maintain some patience which is so difficult for me to do. I still do not doubt that leaving my other job was the right thing to do. My mean old boss was someone who fits the 'stalker' profile. He has a reputation of going after people who get under his skin. I know he was approaching me that way and things would only have gotten worse and they were already bad enough. It is a shame as that job was a good job and convenient to my lifestyle. Oh blah . . . I know, BORING !!!!!!!!!! I will be happy when I have a job that is a hire-in position, and I will be even happier when I GET hired in. Day two for me of seriously doing the South Beach diet. Yesterday was a good day. I went through what I could and could not eat on the plan, and then wrote out my own 'low budget' plan. I can't do all the fancy stuff and have all the variety. That has put me off in the past. Now, I have simplified it and will have no problem with it. My husband has sent me his credit card and some gas money so I can rent a car and go down and see him this coming weekend. After that . . . . I don't know what will happen. He just spent his last $2,000.00 from his cancelled life insurance policy on dental work. This means he won't be able to get a well dug on his property. He also will have very little cash each month for extras, such as car rentals. I can't get a reliable vehicle nor can I afford to rent a car, so I think we are going to be SOL for quite awhile. I can hear the death knell tolling on our relationship. It makes me sad but I know it is the best thing for both of us. We both keep telling eachother we want to hang in there for eachother but it is not the healthiest thing for either of us, and it is only going to put a wedge in my relationship with my daughter. It is a no win situation. It makes me more than sad, he is the most important person in my life aside from my daughter. I have never had anyone care so much about me as he does. I have a feeling of true love for him too and a desire to care for him as he ages. It's been 3/4 of a year that I have lived away from him. I just don't think that things can go on like they are. I need someone with me NOW and the longer I hang on to him the longer I will be without that. The same goes for him, he needs to find someone to share the rest of his life with that can be there for him. Well, gotta go make some phone calls. Hope all is well with everyone! Post a comment in response: |
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