Well, I guess I don't have a lot of time to write an extensive entry into my journal tonight. But I do just wanna check-in and say that things have been going pretty well lately. I've been heating out with nicky quite a bit, and really enjoying it. I feel so much less torn about the nature of our relationship and just generally more inclined to accept things as they are, however they are. Friendship with him is quite enjoyable and even though we know that our feelings run deeper than that, for some reason right now that seems like enough.
Tonight he came over, sort of on the spur of the moment, considering we hadn't made any plans for the night. We ended up going to Arayas for Thai takeout, which we brought home and eight while we watched strangers with candy on DVD. Then we had a really nice time playing scategories. Sometimes my brain feels too numb to play that game but I do my best.
I guess it's going to be kind of an awful lot of time Nikki and I will be spending together in the next few days. He's coming over tomorrow night again, and were going to play more videogames. Then on Monday were going to his cabin in the mountains for a couple of days. This will be the first time we'll have gone to his cabin since we broke up. It might be a little bit weird, but I think mostly it will be good. I love that place so much. I think about it very often and miss it terribly. It really is my favorite place on the planet. We'll probably sleep in separate bedrooms, which will be fine. I think, ultimately, friendship -- or at least an approximation of that -- is best for us right now. I mean by "approximation", not something less than friendship but something more than friendship but which doesn't involve any kind of romantic contact.
I think in some ways it's good that we are spending so much time together right now. Nicky is going to be going on tour with his band beginning around the first of March and they'll be gone until summer starts. They're going all over the USA and then to Europe. So I guess we need to cram in as much time together as we can this month because that'll be it for a good long while. And I know I'm going to miss him, but I think a break will do as good. It will be helpful to sort of step back and reassess the situation when we are on our own.
I just hope that our time apart doesn't give us any reason to grow apart.
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