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im sorry
I'm sorry for not updating this lately.. I've been so upset with everything and I don't know if I even have a future ahead of me. I try and try to keep up with the pace and go along with what's been happening. But it's so hard and yet so confusing. Nothing's making any sense anymore. I have noone to confess it with.. Noone's here for me anymore. I miss the way where whenever I have trouble, I'd rely on my friends.. Like I do with my friends in need.. I'm always tere for them and now I'm beginning ot think it was a big mistake for all that I've done for them. I've sacrificed so much stuff just to help them. It's not really the best feeling in the world.. and it's not really the worst either. Beucase now I know not to have complete trust in everyone. I realized that you have to have complete confidence in yourself when your friends walk out on you. Andeven though things may feel lonely and lost.. Just believing in yourself and having all the faith and hope you can carry.. it's so much more than you can imagine. Friends are just people who say that they care when they really don't. They just want someone to hang out with... to USE. And a best friend is the person that will be there no matter what the cost.. That's what I think I am.. But noone believes me though. I do whatever I can to make everyone happy.. dammit.. I even set aside my own feelings for you! It's not fair the way you guys are treating me! Not fair at all..
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