|Current mood:|| annoyed|
How crazy can it be!! "oh, you shouldn't be around them so much. you don't have time for your other friends anymore. what are you gonna do when they all leave? cassandra's a senior and will be leaving for college..someday josh will get a job in porltand and leave, you're gonna get left all by yourself. and will have abandoned all your old friends." come on mom....josh and luke don't want to leave! i hate it when she does that sometimes..ok all the time! she's been so touchy about that lately. she doesn't want me hanging out w/them much anymore cause it isn't "appropriate"...i mean come on, josh is like an older brother!! you can't get that annoyed w/it!!
i don't want to get too close w/the people at school, they're all either sluts or drink or are just plain stuck up and have horrible values. not to say i'm perfect AT ALL!!!! but I usually can't stand them! mom wants me to do that....whatever...nice try! all my "old friends" have become very stupid in the decisions they make and i don't want that.
i think i could start crying at the littlest thing latley though
i reallly don't know what to do or think right now. life is so confusing and frustrating..it'd be nice to be able to just lock yourself up in a room for weeks!!
the one nice thing about today was dance lessons---it was pretty fun