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The Adrian Asking...?
Once again I'm having trouble with a maths assignment. Won't I ever get one where I can do it all by myself? *sigh* So far - no.
Mum thinks that I should ask Adrian to help me. He doesn't go to my school and he does do AME math on two lines and got the top grades for last semester in it out of Year Eleven. 99.5 and 99.4!
But then if I ask for help I'll feel bad. Like I'm using him or something. Because he doesn't really have any trouble with any of his other subjects - except maybe getting me to proof read an essay or something englishly or religioiusly. And even then - ....
*sigh* I really need help. And my friends at my school are all really competetive. Not to mention moral. And I don't won't to seem stupid to them - whereas Adrian knows that math isn't my greatest subject, especially assignments in it. Mum thinks that he won't mind. I don't think that he would. He wouldn't have minded last year. But it's been half a year since then, and honestly I have no clue.
Should I?
On top of that - it's his birthday tomorrow. And that's when I'll have to ring and ask for help, since I'm now working all weekend (I was only meant to be on Saturday, but Aiden came down with galangila fever (sp?) so now I have to work Sunday as well), and it's due in on Monday.
I don't know what to do. I really don't. Could something happen between us if he helps. It's always been a sort of dream of mine to be like study buddies with him. Gee that sounds lame. And I know I gave up the oportunity of having a relationship with him - but now we're both older (and hopefully wiser) than what we were in 2000 - 2001. It's been three years this September.
*moan*
Undecided. Will sleep on it, and see if Matt will help me during our free periods. If he can't/won't/isn't there/don't get through everything then I shall ring him.
I was going to ring him anyway - because it's his birthday and to have a chat, maybe I could just slip in it - sneaky like - but then since he knows me (and I'm not that sneaky around people I know) he would just guess, or I'd state it outright bluntly.
Let's just see what tomorrow brings, Hmm....
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