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Why does he have to put everything on me? It's just not fair...I tried to leave it at a good point and he puts all this pressure on me? That is so unnecessary. He's starting to scare me just because the fact that I really do think he'll do something that will hurt himself. Why does he have to say that? I tried to be civilize about everything...he can't do this to me. I don't think I'll be able to live with myself if something horrible happens to him.
I admit that after our 1 year anniversary that everything just kinda drained down...it wasn't the same anymore. I didn't text or call him and neither did he do the same for me. It was like everything was taken for granted...in his part at least. Me? I just got fed up with him making me feel guilty for not texting him everyday or calling him when he wants me to. How come he can't return the favor? That's why I've given up...As much as I want it to work out, I just can't be with a guy who can't make sacrifices for me. I've done so much to make it work, but I can't do it alone. I mean, aren't all these reasons rational enough? I don't think i'm being superficial or unrealistic with my demands. I did everything I can...but I've exasperated all my resources for him...I just can't live like that anymore.
And so now he tells me he won't let me go...But who is he to say that? It's my decision and I stand up to what I told him...IT'S OVER. I just want to be happy....that's all.