aaaaah.... i am so goddamned confused.... i hate boys, they can all die... just kidding, but this is really hard...
i think that breakup with brandon just screwed me over because it was so bad, hes so gay though so its not like i care, i just dont like getting hurt like that when IM the one who broke up with him.... it like scarred me, and now im scared to have any relationship with anyone.... dont get me wrong, i like jared a lot, but i dont know how much he likes me back.... i know he does, but he just doesnt really show it... and i really hate that, i mean its not like i want him to be all over me and clingy, id just want him to show he actually cares a little more... and i mean if hes not like that then i dont want to change him, hes a great guy. itd just be nice to get a phone call from him when we dont have anything planned just to see what was up.
last night, me and kim went down to lindsay park, saw a ton of the old seniors, some that just graduated, and a few of the north senior girls who just graduated... it was cool, then we went to steak & shake and got some shakes... ryne and dean met us there, then we went back to rynes house for like 20 minutes... today me and kim went to crow valley, then splash landing, then outing club, then the mall... so hopefully we got a LITTLE tanner, i dont think there were very many more places we couldve gone.. it was SO nice out today too. i got my ears re-double pierced... thinking about getting my cartilage done, i dont know though yet... its cute though. tonight i have to go to my dads (gaaaay), and theres a bunch of people going to the drive in at like 6:30... which sucks, because ill have to eat dinner with my dad, and then he wont let me go there... which sucks... kims not going either because she has to work, so i might just end up doing something with her. but now i have to leave for my dads.. later
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