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Knives (knives777) wrote,
@ 2003-10-22 00:55:00
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    Current mood: contemplative

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    ok......
    well I have come to a point where I can't really function anymore.....

    I would like to think that my "insanity" was brought on by pain and illness.... But that was just a catalist...

    it was there the whole time... Its just that....I don't know....
    no one understands.... I don't think Im crazy.....but then again.....sane people don't do the things I do.. or feel the things I feel... the me that people know is just a small part of me.
    I tend to scare myself...... then I shake it off....
    but its different this time... I don't feel the same.. Not like before.... I know its there but.....
    Its not like showing as much......
    I don't feel as......angry with myself like I do whenever it comes out....instead I feel fine.... Like its not me...
    IM NOT THE SICK ONE.......THEY ARE....

    I really am crazy you know? Not too many people know that.......

    My family just ignors it.... thats best...if they tried something it would only lead in pain......and not mine....
    a few friends know...... There was no other way to explain my behavior.......it was a have truth...
    I didn't go very deep into my "problems".........just enough....

    man im sick....I would I even write about this? I don't really have a need to.....

    Im just bored right now.....
    well....think what you like.....fear me....love me....trust me.... its all the same to me...

    Im not going to say "DON'T FUCK WITH ME......." thats just wrong...... It happens... so what?
    get over it... thats life...
    One shity moment after another....just a series of shity moments....then sometimes.....sometimes....

    Life doesan't seem so shitty after all.................then goes to shit again.... thats the way it is I guess.



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