|Current mood:|| crappy|
|Current music:||"Why Don't You and I" -Alex Band & Santana|
Being Sick Sucks!!!
I decided that since I'm sick and not able to go anywhere, I'll make a little update on my Blurty. :) lucky for you.
So, last night, I came home after school and crew stuff, and I felt like HELL and a half. At first, I wanted to go to the game, but I slowly sunk into wanting to sleep. So, I didn't go. But, I wish I had! It sounds like a good amount of people went. And all these random people called me during it and were like "where are you?!". I didn't think anyone cared if I went or not. That made me kinda feel good. :) haha (I'm such a nerd..)
Being Sick really does Suck, though. For some reason, the weekend I'm sick, people are wanting to actually do stuff, and I'm like chill.. I can't breathe or talk. haha.. It's no fair!!! Man, oh man.. its not fair..
Hmm..you know what? I need to stop being so.. what's the word?..worried about other people. I'm not really like that, I'm more or less like that when it comes to guys. I'm so hard on myself when it comes to how I am percieved by them. Like, I think I'm not good enough for anyone, even though, when I'm not being hard on myself, I know I have a lot to offer. I dunno, I just think guys would want nothing to do with me. I'm not pretty enough, or smart enough, or not funny enough, or not this or not that. I need to stop that, because if I keep looking at myself like that, I'm going to miss out on a lot. And nobody wants that.
So.. I'm watching Trading Spaces..but I'm in the mood to watch 'Good Will Hunting'. I could really use a) a good Matt Damon movie :) b) a good movie with boys from Boston..I LOVE most Bostonians.. I think that's it..accents. I don't know.. its one of my dorky likes. haha.. So, I'm gonna go find it..