|Current mood:|| depressed|
|Current music:||Atreyu / Ain't Love Grand|
I'm fucking BIPOLAR!!!!!
-.- I wanna cry.. and earlier today.. I was all hyper n shit.. wtf? I'm so sick of myself! Someone blow my brains out, please? Being me is such bullshit, it aint funny anymore. And I'm so fucking annoyed with people today... UGH.. I wanna go on a killing spree and kill everyone.. EVERYONE. Yes, even yer mom. So fuck you and yer dad, too.
I was talking to my mom about Drew today.. somehow, she hinted that she wouldn't like it much if I dated him.. then again, I dont really care since it is my decision.. Fucking sucks that in 3 months I'll be illegal for him. *sighs* Why do all the good things come with hellish, shitty consequences? Josh was in another state, Drew's almost 18, my best friend is in Canada... Why the fuck does all the good shit have to be so fucking close, yet too damn far to hold? I hate it, I hate it, I hate it! Hate hate hate hate hate... AUGH! *pouts, screams, punches a wall*
For the most part, I remembered something good. I get to meet Atreyu. Nick's gonna hate me more than he already does, I think.. I dunno.. I dont think he's that loserish to hate me because of it. Drew's a loser enough to hate me because I met Rob Zombie. =\ Oh well. He still loves me though. I hope.. =|
I need to talk to someone.. since updating a fucking journal doesn't help much.. I'm out. Peace.