We've been together for four months, but just the other day Mike and I went on our first date. We went to see School of Rock and followed it up with dinner. The movie was great, dinner was nice except I've become self-conscious about my salting habits. I've become enthused about doing this dating thing more often. I already suggested that he and I take a day trip to a spa when we have time. He needed a little convincing, but I think I did the trick.
The other day I randomly stopped by Adam's apartment. It probably would have been better if I came with at least a vague idea of what to do. We just sort of stood around in awkwardness, talking. I think after all these years of knowing each other, we should be able to just sit around with nothing to do but drink a couple beers and just hang. I'm thinking one of the predominant reasons for the awkwardness is that Eric and I were essentially (but not quite) dating during that in which he'd "disappeared" on Adam. It's something that's never been aired out between Adam and I, and it wouldn't surprise me if it's been continuing to have it's impact on our relationship. We should otherwise be good friends, but I think this issue continues to create a chasm between us.
I stopped in a bookstore today to browse some programming books and found myself eventually wandering into a different section entirely. What I picked up and settled at a table within the bookstore with was a book on corporal punishment. My interest in physically disciplining children and it's effects on their development isn't particularly great, but there was a chapter on the fusion of sex and violence that caught my eye, and that's what I sat down to read through. It was an interesting exploration into the reasoning behind an overwhelmingly common desire to partake in or be subjected to masochistic sexual behavior. Being a book on corporal punishment, the author/s kept drawing the line back to childhood spankings and other factors of upbringing. It was an interesting read, although not real enlightening except that I learned the predisposition toward that kind of sexual behavior isn't really that uncommon. It does have me pondering a few things in regards to closely associating love with violence/pain. It's sort of an interesting thing to consider and I'm wondering it's relevance and validity to my own preferences.
...That was quite possibly my oddest update...
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