|Current mood:|| cynical|
It's no one's fault but my own
I went to see my doctor today for my regular check up kind of thing. I found out why I've been so sick lately. There are ways for me to get "over" this sickness. One I am completely against because it goes against everything I believe in and the other...well let me just say that I'll get worse before I get better, and there no telling how long that will take either.
-sighs some tucking my hair behind my ear- I'm literally between a rock and a hard place. Do I go against everything I believe in, everything I've been taught just to save myself from more sickness, or do I let my body naturally handle this until I physically can't take it anymore? I talked to both my mom and dad about this already and they said they'll support me no matter what my decision is. And the other person I need to talk to...-laughs bitterly- Well he's not around. Left a few messages for him and nothing. I don't know why I bothered to do that. It's obvious that something else is going on in his life, but I'm just as important.
I asked my doctor how all this will effect what I have planned for the next month. She said that I'd only be sick, there are no antibiotics to help me get better. Just take it easy and not push myself so hard when I feel that I'm getting sicker or I feel that I can't handle it.
-sighs again running my hand through my hair- I need a fucking drink.