| Current mood: |  angry |
| Current music: | Arms of the angels Sarah McLaughlin |
Tomorrow..tomorrow...I love ya, tomorrow, you're only a day away...
I'm really glad to finally be going back tomorrow. Being here is such a waste of my time. I mean sure, I get to see my friends, but the people I want to see I have to see in a group and then I end up seeing a lot of people who just piss me off too. You know, I guess I have changed, and I'm damn happy that I have. All these people home, they're the friggin same...it's ridiculous. The same grudges, the same drama, the same bullshit. And being here just brings that out in me also. I'm trying to grow up and I just get dragged down by the people I left behind. Honestly, the immaturity...I can't handle it, it's contagious...I don't like the person it makes me become.
Ups and downs of the evening? Well, mostly downs I guess. I don't know why I bother, half my friends don't even bother talking to me unless they need me...and that includes when I actually see them. I can't maintain a friendship like that...I need reciprocity, not just Gina being mommy all the goddamn time. I also don't like it when people try and make me jealous on purpose...that shit pisses me off. Oh, and when people get all fucking hypocritical? Like when certain people feel the need to say shit that will piss me off, and do shit that will piss me off but I don't say anything and then the minute I even mention someone they don't like they flip a fucking shit? Yeh...that's stupid. Frankly, I've had it with my friends, and if I didn't still love them, I would just ignore them all together. But I do still love them, despite all the stupid shit they do, so I guess I'm stuck.
Good thing...Jen and I decided to call eachother more often and talk more. And John really is treating her like a princess. And she's taking it well. I don't think I've ever seen a happier or better couple. I mean, he takes her out to dinner, he won't let her in his car if he isn't sure it's safe enough, he opens doors, caters to her every need, holds her, kisses her, lets her have whatever she wants...that's perfection. But the icing on the cake is that Jen loves him enough and is comfortable enough to accept it. That's what made my night...their happiness. The shitty part is that no one else can be happy for them, all they do is give them shit.
So yeah...all in all I've just about had it with this place. Except for my family and a few of my friends, coming home is barely a pleasure any more. Maybe it'll be better over winter break, when I'm not trying to fit everyone into 3 days time. Maybe.
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