|Current mood:|| irritated|
|Current music:||You Were Mine by the Dixie Chicks|
While I'm listening to this song...
This is the song I jokingly sang to my friend, Kelly, when she started going out with this guy and all she could ever talk about was him, and when she's going to see him next, and when she'll talk to him next, and that she hasn't seen him or talked to him in this many days and hours, and I felt like he was taking her away...not on purpose, but she was letting him do it. Well, I sang this song to her in a joking manner one day and it because "our song." Well, they broke up and she started going out with this other guy and the same thing started to happen, but this time, he lives in the same city, so it's even more rediculous! (Ooh, wow, it just hit me that I'm getting a little tired...so I'll hurry and finish). Well, she started having sex with this guys and didn't want anyone to find out or anything, but then goes and brags about it to everyone in creation. Well, yeah, that got a little annoying. Well, she went without using a condom a few times, and every single time she did, she was worried about whether or not she was pregnant. I said that if she was worried then to quit having sex or use a condom! Well, she didn't listen to me then, but she never does, just like most people in my life. But that's a whole different story. Anyways...she keeps complaining about how when they have sex, she tells him no, but he keeps taking off her clothing, and so she goes ahead with it because he won't stop. UMM...HELLO?! IF HE DOESN'T STOP THEN GET UP AND LEAVE! AND IF THAT DOESN'T WORK, SLAP HIM ACROSS THE FACE AND LEAVE! OR BETTER YET, DON'T BE ALONE WITH THE GUY IF YOU KNOW HE WANTS SEX! It's plain and simple. But anyways...she keeps telling me that she doesn't think that he loves her and that he's only using her for sex. Well, here's another plain and simple thing....QUIT HAVING SEX WITH HIM AND SEE IF HE STILL STICKS AROUND! My gosh, it's not that hard to figure out. But then again, I think that she just does this for the attention. But a few weeks ago I spent the night at her house and a few days before she didn't use a condom and said that she was late on her period and thought that she was pregnant. Well, she got herself so worked up about it that she woke me up in the middle of the night asking me to go buy her a pregnancy test because she knew that she was pregnant and that she didn't know what she was going to do with her life is she were pregnant. Well, like I said before, quit having sex and your problems will disappear. She said that she wasn't going to have sex with him anymore...but I know how well she keeps promises, so I'll be hearing more of it in the next couple of weeks. But what pissed me off the most about her having sex with him, was that one day when I was at her house, he came over to see her, and I went and got on the computer so I wouldn't feel like the third wheel and they went into the guest bedroom and had sex, while I was in the house! That really pissed me off. But what really sent me head over heals was the she told me that they just sat there and watched t.v. the whole time and that nothing happened between them, and above all things...I found all this out when she was drunk! Well, anyways...she ignores me all the time for him, and I've gotten mad at her so many times for it. But you know, it doesn't really bother me that much anymore because I know that true friends don't do that to each other. She may be "getting me back" for messing around with her older brother...but the only reason stuff went on between the two of us was I was lonely that night I was longing for someone to touch my face the way he had that night, and when he did, I just completely melted. Well, anyways...that's yet another different story. I've apologized for that one and practically took myself out of her family's life for a while because I felt wrong and dirty about the whole thing. I admitted it, like 1 or 2 days after it had happened. She didn't even admit that she was spending to much time with her boyfriend and too much time ignoring me until after we ended our friendship over it, which was 2 weeks ago, but we're back to friends again, but she just admitted it today, or yesterday if you count the whole 12 thing. They've been going out since, um....like March or April, so that's at least like 5 months or something. She just doesn't understand that you can have a boyfriend and have a friend at the same time. Well, anyways...I don't think we'll ever be best friends again anyways...because I just recently started going to church again, and they said that I shouldn't get rid of all of my friends, but to make my best friends people that are christians because they're a better influence, and I don't think that someone that doesn't know if they're pregnant or not and ignores me over half the time is a good influence. I haven't said anything to her yet about this...but I figure she'll know sooner or later. I know that's not nice, but that's the only way I can think of without coming right out and saying it to her. Hey, I'm a good person to talk to for anyone who got this far... I mean, if you ever need to talk, you can always email me and I'll email you back if you'd like and help you out. Won't tell anyone, promise, and I never break promises. I'm known in my school for listening to people's problems and helping them out with them. (If you can't tell, I wanna be a psychologist). Well, yeah, here's my email addresses, so if you need to talk...you can reach me. email@example.com firstname.lastname@example.org email@example.com If you need help, talk to me. I guess I need someone to talk to, but as long as this is here, then I'm letting other people know that there's someone out there with similar problems..and that's all I need to know.