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if you think it's too long, you can kiss my ass.
Rant: gas prices are killing me. Mary-Sue gave me $20 today to get me through the week until she can pay me (on friday). Yesterday, I put $16 in my truck, but it didn't fill it up so I decided to buy gas before I went home. I thought it would be maybe $5-$10 and I'd still have a little extra to go to some garage sales tomorrow (before this I was completely broke). It ended up costing me $14.20. Which is insane. so, in the past 2 days I have spent $40 on gas (because Landon gave me $10 in gas yesterday morning for taking him to his dad's shop). That's so much bullshit. I know everyone's talking about it, but really... how bad does it have to get? so now I have $5 and I'm not going anywhere until I get paid next. I hope that tank lasts me all week.
I've decided I'm not going to ask my mom for any money this summer. Why? Because they're not doing so well. And I know I'm most of the problem. So, I won't have a whole lot extra for clothes and whatnot, and I can't really save a whole lot (I was thinking about saving most of it for the summer and next year to buy a decent used car for after I move out) but maybe if my mom can save all the money she would normally spend on me then I'll actually have teeth.
Oh, yeah... that's right. I still have baby teeth. And my orthodontist says that they might fall out as soon as they take my braces off. I think he told me there were 2 but my mom says he told her there are 4. The two on each side of my front top teeth. I know at least one of them is going to fall out because a few months ago it had fallen below my other teeth and they had to push it back up in with a wire. They said I could get bridges until my mom got the money for implants but now they're saying that a bridge is going to cost $2700 a tooth. I'm not even sure what implants would cost, but if bridges are supposed to be cheaper than implants, then I'm screwed. I think they're going to make my retainer with fake teeth in it, so it doesn't look so bad but they said they didn't know how good the retainer would be with 2 teeth right next to each other. I want my teeth. And, what really pisses me off is the fact that they told me when I first got there that I didn't have any baby teeth and that my old dentist was crazy. I really think they should have to pay for my implants because of that.
all I have to say is this: Why did I spend so much money, time and pain on getting my teeth fixed when I'm going to end up looking worse and having a harder time eating anyway? I'd rather keep my braces forever than be toothless. I just want to cry everytime I think about it. what a fucking waste.
I feel like I've been on the edge of tears every minute of everyday for the past 3 or 4 days. It's driving me crazy.
Casie colored my face yellow today with a marker. Paige fell over laughing when she saw me. Mo keeps trying to pick fights with Paige and it gets on my nerves. She also cries too much. They keep wanting me to take them places but I don't have enough seat belts. Yesterday I took Paige and Casie to the swimming pool and I didn't have a seatbelt. I don't need a ticket for me not having one and for Paige and Mo sharing one. I'm having enough money problems as it is. We made peanut butter no bake cookies and gingerbread cookies shaped like Christmas trees. It was the only cookie cutter we could find. I guess watching them all day isn't so bad. I cleaned the kitchen and living room and got to feel like a mother for 6 hours. Maybe, it's not so bad (I told you I'd change my mind).
Tomorrow is Ryan and mine 2 month anniversary. It seems like it's been so much longer, though. I actually forgot until this morning when I talked to him, but I must tell you, it's mighty hot that he remembered. I love him quite much.
mmm... strawberry daiquiri... I'm so glad my parents are (as my mom puts it) "alchies".
P.S. I need a vinegar rub down.
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