|Current mood:|| sick|
|Current music:||Best of Me- The Starting Line|
The best girlfriend
StixAndStones23: what are you gonna do?
LauRaL0n: I dunno, I really don't. It feels like it's out of my hands now
StixAndStones23: Well if thatz the case y do u keep trying?
LauRaL0n: you dont really understand Jenny, he means so much to me and i mean yeah, we fight, but God it feels like my heart is being squeezed as hard as it can when we fight
LauRaL0n: ugh... i dunno
StixAndStones23: well lars, i guess the only question you can ask yourself is, is he worth it all?
LauRaL0n: yeah, he really is. and i mean you know me well enough jen that if something is as bad as this, i just say fuck it, whatev i dont give a flying fuck. but with him, he's worth all this, and i will literally do anything for things to be better
StixAndStones23: yea but lars you member that whole deal with me and markus, we told each other that it would never end, and it did
LauRaL0n: thats you and marcus, jenny. that doesnt mean its gotta be that way with us. its all so ridiculous its driving me crazy.
LauRaL0n: and you know what really gets me? everything i say to him, it seems like its going through one ear and out the other. EVERYTHING he tells me, i listen to, and i'm always there for him. he thinks ive lied about some shit and you fucking know me jen, i dont fucking lie, and if i ever did, it would have to be a life or death situation or somethin
StixAndStones23: yea well, thats why people love to talk to you about thier shit, you dont go off and tell the whole school cuz you are an honest kinda gal. but things can't always be perfect laura and yea he probably made you happy but, are you happy now?
LauRaL0n: i dont expect things to be perfect, we are both human. and yes, he made me extremely happy, and just the thought of him makes me happy. and right now, of course im not happy with the way things are going between us, but what can i do? its out of my hands. ide shave my head and grow a beard for him. lol
StixAndStones23: hehe well youv told me some kick azz stuff about him in the past and just yesterday you were braggin bout him, and i just want what makes you happy chica
LauRaL0n: well... he makes me happy jenjen, i mean other things make me happy too. but without him, i just feel like there is nothing to happy about anymore
StixAndStones23: yea, well u kno im always here for you girl, day or night monday through sunday. i hate to see you like this
LauRaL0n: you think you hate it? think about how i feel right now
StixAndStones23: i kno i kno but you gotta remember that god is watching over you and just keep him in your prayerz
LauRaL0n: i know girl... God damn, thank you so much. I'm not happy but you made me feel a little bit better
StixAndStones23: cheese and crackers, love
LauRaL0n: lmao, eat shit and die
StixAndStones23: im on it!
JenJen, what can I say. That was probably the most deep convo we've ever had. lol. we are always dissing each other ;-) no seriously, I really appreciated that, babyface. Have a great xmas, and have fun skiing you muda fucka! lol cheese and crackers, love... it's ALL about the cheese and crackers!