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| Current music: | "i don't dream about anyone, except for me" |
don't know why i always do this, fucking settle like this. & get all emotionally fucked cuz of it. i'm just horrible at this sex/relationship thing, & i REALLY know how to fucking pick 'em. gah bullshit, more angry with myself than hiiiim. shouldn't be a distraction right now. i got two papers to finish tonight and then two more paintings. think i may go to the studio to work on this bad boy:
oooy, seriously i just wanna curl up and convulse.. or paint. either way, i suppose.
Yes I'm lonely wanna die
Yes I'm lonely wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.
In the morning wanna die
In the evening wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.
My mother was of the sky
My father was of the earth
But I am of the universe
And you know what it's worth
I'm lonely wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.
The eagle picks my eye
The worm he licks my bones
I feel so suicidal
Just like Dylan's Mr. Jones
Lonely wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.
Black cloud crossed my mind
Blue mist round my soul
Feel so suicidal
Even hate my rock and roll
Wanna die yeah wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.
edit; just thinking about what to say to wobz- erm- i am an emotional person and become invested in all of my relationships (with friends, family, or whomever) and when concern isn't reciprocated, it's extraordinarily frustrating. makes me feel you just don't care THUS i feel like i'm wasting time. it's an added distraction that i really don't fucking need, son. so, either man up and think about someone other than yourself or i gotta stop sleepin with you (which is totally easier said than done, btw)
edit edit; "just do me a favor dont let assholes drag you down .. you are gold .. or jinjit and i love you and i dont like hearing you say they hurt you"
plus, i really want a fucking cigarette.
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