it has been over a month since i've last posted. in that time i've lost my best friend to a car accident and my sister to a brain tumor.
my night terrors have returned and they are worse then ever and more frequent then ever. just like when i was a child. i would stay awake for weeks because i was afraid to sleep. i'm back to that state.
i haven't been able to eat since friday. almost a week without food. i know that if i can't get something to stay in my body soon i will end up in the emergency room poked full of needles and a feeding tube.
i'm scared. lonely. cold. i'm sad. i feel like my world crumbles whenever i stay somewhere too long.
i want to grab my luggage and fly somewhere.
ideally i want to fly to some unnamed island off the coast of greece and watch the sunset.
realistically, i have to return to my life.
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