johnny clue (johnathanxd) wrote, @ 2006-08-23 10:53:00

update
it has been over a month since i've last posted. in that time i've lost my best friend to a car accident and my sister to a brain tumor.

my night terrors have returned and they are worse then ever and more frequent then ever. just like when i was a child. i would stay awake for weeks because i was afraid to sleep. i'm back to that state.

i haven't been able to eat since friday. almost a week without food. i know that if i can't get something to stay in my body soon i will end up in the emergency room poked full of needles and a feeding tube.

i'm scared. lonely. cold. i'm sad. i feel like my world crumbles whenever i stay somewhere too long.

i want to grab my luggage and fly somewhere.

ideally i want to fly to some unnamed island off the coast of greece and watch the sunset.

realistically, i have to return to my life.

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