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-leans back in bed and grabs laptop..turns on computer..waits for 10 hours ..goes to www.blurty.com, signs in.presses update...whoah now i'm here woooot!
i'm so nervous! I don't know if i'm supposed to get married.! what if i'm not ready? i can't stop thinking about all the stuff i need to do before i get married and that's scary!
i'm really young 20 freaking 4! I mean...yeah i guess i'm old enough to start getting married...but what comes after marriage..? BABIES! ahhh
and not only that but I've got good charlotte to think about..i'm thinking maybe i should wait til the band settles down..but then i think WHEN will that be?!?! and i might be to old..or not have anyone by then
i want a family and a wife..but when should i start all of that stuff..when do i stop the ME stuff and start the family stuff??? i have no idea...
ahh..-holds head between hands, rests elbows on knees- ::cries:: what am i supposed to do?? GET MARRIED??? OR NOT?
I love Mandy, but i think we need to talk about this first...i know it's all muh fault i mean she didn't ask me to ask her I asked her obviously It was running through my mind! It wasn't Mandy's fault at all ....
Mandy I DO LOVE YOU , but we also need to talk about getting married instead of rushing into it like i did when i purposed..i'm NOT saying that i didn't mean what all i said and i'm not saying I don't want to get married i'm just saying we should talk alot more about it first...call me when you get the chance Mandy...
Joely.
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