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He will not die.......he cannot die.
Hey Jess.
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>Those smiley things were great, really made my day. ^^ Sorry I haven't been able to get back to you much at all, I feel like such an ass. It's just... *sighs*
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>Mike's been really damn sick for the past two weeks, and he finally went to the damn doctor, and they did this weird ass testing, and well....
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>Mike has cancer.... this fucking weird shit that's eating him from the inside out... and they didn't diagnose it in time... and he's dying.... and they can't fucking fix it! The fucking doctors can't fucking fix my brother! He's gonna fucking DIE, and they can't do fucking shit about it, except watch and wait until his fucking heart stops!
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>Fuck. God, I love you Jess, and I'm glad we're friends, and I'm just scared as hell because Mike's my best-bro in this whole fucking world, and....
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>HE CAN'T FUCKING DIE! I WON'T FUCKING LET IT HAPPEN!
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>I gotta go.... cya Jess.... i might not be able to get back to you for awhile.... thanks for being there, man.... love ya always....
>
>Jake
thats an email i really enjoyed seeing in my inbox.
i hate it! i cant believe it!
mike cant die! he just cant!!
this hurts so much.
i thought my day was bad....
no.
mike just cant die.
mike will not die!
i wish i was there!
i wish i could help!
but its just no fucking fair.
i cant do shit.
A GREAT FRIEND OF MINE IS FUCKING DYING OF CANCER AND I CAN'T DO SHIT ABOUT IT!!
it just makes me feel so bad.
goddamnit!!!
God, when Mike finally doesn't have to go through this pain anymore, please, I pray to you, that you don't send him to hell. Please. Mike doesn't deserve it. Please, don't give Mike any more pain. Spare him, Lord. Please.
my day was ok until i opened that email.
you always think:
"nah, it wont happen to me. this kind of shit always happens to someone else, not to me"
you're wrong
YOU'RE FUCKING WRONG!!!
and dont say that i'm taking it too hard either.
FUCK YOU.
school: sucked
after school: awesome
home: sucked
goddamnit.
i need to be alone.
i want to be off these stupid anti-depressants so that i can cry.
FUCK YOU ZOLOFT!!!
fuck you, cancer.
FUCK YOU
you dont care about me
and you know it
praying for mike,
jessica.
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