|Current mood:||in pain :(|
|Current music:||"Best I Ever Had" by Vertical Horizon, cuz you are...|
Being with you is like watching the sweetest starry sky fade into morning......
Hey baby, what's happening? Not much here.....got my pictures back! YAY! The one with me and Joey turned out great, and the one of me and Sarah, too.
Oh yeah, ok here's the real reason I am writing this blurty: For the next few days, two or three, I haven't decided how many yet, I'm not really going to talk to anyone except Sarah. Honestly, she is almost the only person I talk to. I mean yeah, Jordan and I talk, but not as much as you would think. And we barely talk about anything at all, which is way different than it used to be, but whatever, that is not what I want to discuss right now. Sarah told me that she and Ryan talk more than Jordan and I do, and they aren't even going out. Interesting....well whatever, I'm going to be anti social for a while because I need to really sort some things out. I'm so busy worrying about stupid shit that other people don't seem to give a damn about, and I'm frankly tired of it. If they don't have a problem with the way things are, then I'm not going to give a shit either. It's that simple, really. :)
I don't know why I'm having this sudden burst of whatever you want to call it, but I am. I talk to Sarah ALL THE TIME, and she understands why I am doing this whole thing, so therefore I am still gonna talk to her. For most people, they shouldn't take this personally. I just need a time out, you know? And I don't want to have to worry about why this person or that person isn't talking to ME, so I'm just gonna be the one who isn't talking now. Hard to imagine, since I never shut up lol but it's all good. My head will be clearer and I will be able to focus on school, which is what should REALLY be mattering to me right now, but is taking a backseat to everything else. I always put everything and everyone else first, and it hasn't been reciprocal lately, so maybe I should give some certain people some time to miss me lol cuz all I do is put forth effort for them and they don't do anything unless they WANT something. Or they pretend that it is one thing and it's really a completely different reason altogether. I don't want to play games right now so yeah, that's the way it's going to go.
Sarah and I hung out today as usual, nothing too exciting happened except that we were watching the video and laughing hysterically. Good times. Totally brightened an otherwise crappy day. WOW i just twitched, how weird lol RANDOM ok well that's all, bye now