|Current mood:|| tired|
I feel like ass. Pure ass. Ryan left to go to Foley, Al yesterday to work all week. I mean, at least he's working. That's great. But all the way in Foley, all week! I'm already going crazy. I miss him so much and it's only been one day. Yesterday me and Crystal got about 2g. hah, I actually called Jason to call Lisa for me. He did it. He understood too about the whole Ryan thing. He told me he didn't want me telling him he did that for me.. and I questioned him. Turns out we have the same viewpoint on it. That's really comforting.. and makes me feel like not such a bad person.
I think I might be getting a cold or something. I don't know.. it's probably everything catching up to me. I don't like it though. I slept through both classes this morning. uuggghh! I have a research paper due tomorrow at 3pm and I haven't started. I'm so hungry for some good food, and all I have is $1 to my name. I got some good pain pills yesterday that I think I can make some good money off of. They're supposed to be about 10x stronger than heroin. Wow, that kind of makes me sound crazy wild. I was so fucked up last night around 2 that I took a 2mg. I just nibbled on it until it was gone. Honestly.. they're fucking worth so much money. If I didn't get them for free I would buy em for sure. I'm going to try to sell 9 to Joey for $100. I think it's very possible. Gah, that money would help me out so much. I swear the only drug I would get with it would be weed. . until Friday I guess.
All I want to do is go to fucking bed! With a southern style chicken sandwich in my hand. . and Ryan beside me. I miss him! 3-4 more days. I can handle it.