i haven't wrote in here for a while, hmmmmm what has been going on in my life and head? I am now dead to lynsey and her family and her friends. I faked my death so she would leave me alone and so that the both of us could move on. Ever spend so much time with someone and you totaly get along with them then you like break up and everything gets fucked up and you still feel for that person and it rips you apart talking that perosn knowing what you had and seeing that they don't care? That how is was with her, she kept lying to me to spare my feelings but all it did was rip me apart even more when i found out she was lying. i have come to the point to were i can't trust girls. I have dated the "wrong ones" and they totaly fucked my head up. It is like they all lie to me. I don't know what to believe anymore. My home is didn't get any better either. My mom is constantly depressed and she is giving my dog away and now i will be alone all day. I would try to hang out with my friends but i can't. My friends are all busy with things i wish i had but can't seem to get even though i try so hard. No matter how hard i try i still get nowhere. i just don't know anymore! If you know please tell me, i could use some help!!!