| Current mood: |  disappointed |
i wanted to stay forever and ever
ah yes, im back. back from one of the longest weeks of the year. basketball try-outs week. after monday i realized how much i really didn’t care, but i went through w/ the try-outs anyway for the pure reason of finishing what i started. but im not playing and i think its definitely an oppurtunity opener. ive devised a list of things that i want to do now that i dont have a major commitment everyday, it goes such as :
1. take voice lessons
2. concentrate on getting better at my guitar, like really concentrate on it. maybe ill have tony give me some lessons.
3. have my next report card be top 50 in the class
4. get a membership to the Y (possibly w/ k. fin) and go after school everyday as my means of staying in shape.
there will be more to come, but that’s it for now. if i could get decent on my guitar, decent enough to be able to sing w/ it, that would be the best. i think i might enter that win $100 karaoke contest at school. hahahhaha make a fool out of myself, but it’s all in good fun.
i usually dont have a problem with snow. i love the way it looks. i live on a dead end in the middle of nowhere and the city forgets that we exist so a plow only comes up 2ce a day. it’s a hill and almost no one attempts to go up it, so the street stays very surreal. it looks a lot like something you’d see on the front of a post card. in the same respect, the lack of plowing usually makes it very difficult to leave the house. just like right now. we are very much snowed in. i would have really appreciated it if the snow held off until sunday night. i dont even care about missing school, but it messed up all of my plans for the weekend, and im not gunna lie, i am very disappointed.
i apologize for anyone that i annoyed w/ my complaining yesterday. i felt the need to sulk for various reasons. im all done now though.
my mom is on extreme edge. i seriously dont know what shed do if i were actually a problem child and she had good reason to yell at everything i do. (that last sentence didn’t really make sense did it? eh, use your imagination, you couldn’t get too far off.) anyway, when she’s on edge it means we’re both at eachothers throats, but my family is so weird. like my mom and i will scream at each other and then 10 minutes later everything will be fine-ish. we fight too much to stay mad at each other. although, it does put me into a bad mood for the time being when were are still angry.
i had the best dream last night. it was one of those dreams where you dont know its a dream and you just want to stay there forever and ever. my mom woke me up and i was like nooooooooooo. i was actually in a good mood because of my dream. i wanted to stay there forever and ever .
i woke up...ahem...was woken up at 9:30 and did dishes/cleaned the stove until 10:45 and then went to my room to “clean my room” and totally fell asleep until 2! i wanted to go back to my dream, but it didn’t happen.
Christmas shopping needs to be done. i have no idea what i want to do. eek!
I'm surprising myself a lot lately and i like it.
yours truly,
Juliana
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